Reminder from Fran

I like the sound of the crickets as I write this post.

It signals heat is still here and summer isn't quite done.

Celestino is outside with his besties, the Nonnas who let him join their nightly gathering.

I'm busy eating a tortilla wrap that I made with chicken, lettuce, mayo and some sweet chilli sauce.

A glass of red from Sicily keeps me company.

I wasn't in the mood for friends or lovers, although everyone has been kind.

Finally we went to the beach today after seven days of being housebound.

Somehow managed to get Covid again.

Not a great way to end the summer holidays, but certainly an invitation to slow down.

The sea was healing for me and Cele.

He sat in the sand taking in the waves, I did the same hoping to heal with the iodine.

Then tears began to stream down.

I miss Fran so much. Too much. Always worse so when I’m tired or low.

I realised how often I dream about him or perhaps how often he simply presents himself in my sleep state?

That world between worlds where nothing has changed.

He is still his laughing, handsome self reminding me to lighten up.

I am still my purposeful, serious self trying to get life “right."

I hear his words make fun of me on the beach, “Baby, why you cry?"

Immediately I smile.

Celestino promptly gets up from the sand as if to say, “Enough now mummy, let's go."

So we go.

Driving back to our beautiful White City of Ostuni, the sun just going down, the hilltop cathedral glistening in the background.

I park the car effortlessly having asked Fran to hold me a space.

He always answers my requests.

Cele and I make our way home.

Glad to have made it out to the sea, relieved to still have Francesco so close to me.♥️

Are you still missing your one true love? Me too.

Just know that they are always with us, from the place they now stand they want to help and soothe and ease our journey.

Let them in. Simply ask.

The moment you are thinking of them, trust that is because they are thinking of you.

No matter your earthly experience, only LOVE remains and they want to shower us with all the love available, smoothing our path and comforting us in our pain.