Grace Notes on Love & Loss
Francesco’s parents amaze me, they show me that human resilience is innate.
You don’t have to be spiritual, you don’t have to understand principles, you don’t even need to know how the mind works.
I had a dream the other night.
I was with Fran’s parents and we were asking him how we would recognise his presence.
I’ve been thinking about the times I made mistakes in my relationship.
It is something I’ve had to face more fully. When I’m tired it truly does upset me but my mentors have reminded me that I was doing the best I could given the thinking that looked real to me at the time.
I’m remembering the time Francesco proposed.
I’d been to Devon on retreat a few months earlier learning about the principles that guide life.
My mind got quiet and I called him & said
I am thinking of the day Francesco died.
My posts keep going back to death but death and love is all I can currently share.
Every day is different for me as I navigate this loss but one thing is constant, love is eternal, it goes far beyond the person’s physical presence on this earth.
This was so him.
Always playing with me, even in the professional photoshoots
Had a lovely conversation with my Irish friends the other night.
We got talking about my Francesco’s love.
When he was alive I used to get insecure about our love at times.
I’ve been keeping a record of how Francesco is touching my life.
This connection to his non-physical is rich and the manifestations are very quick and very reflective of his unique talents.
How often our love can seem obscured as we listen to our habitual thinking about the other person.
Habitual thinking is learned.
Lovely conversation with a client who just had a baby.
We got exploring about feeling states.
She recognised a feeling of anxiety emerging about her new baby.
I am comforted by this deeper connection to spirit & Francesco’s non physical form.
All resistance gone.
I’m recording daily the ways in which he is communicating with me.