Grace Notes on Love & Loss

#HowWeMet

#HowWeMet

Happy anniversary my love. ❤️❤️❤️
14 years today since I walked onto that airplane and had the strong since to sit next to you.

#SignOfDivine

#SignOfDivine

Bit of a low day yesterday until Francesco sprang forth.

Took myself for a walk and had an insight about grief. My grief is occuring when I relive his death and loss but it’s not there when I relive his life.

#HubOfLove

#HubOfLove

I’m missing the physical….
Francesco was so affectionate with me.
Heart to heart hugs in the morning, he said it set the day right.

#LockdownLove

#LockdownLove

Exactly 12 months ago Francesco and I went into lockdown.
Finally together without any distractions,
my mind slowed down, his time freed up.

#TheLastGlimpse

#TheLastGlimpse

I can still see myself on the street ready to cross the road when I heard Francesco shout from a car “Hey baby”.

I didn’t know this would be the last time we’d meet each other alive.

#Bargaining

#Bargaining

Where did you go?
When I see these photos I see life, love, full of future.
Then I remember you’re gone.
Where did you go my love?

#LossAsLove

#LossAsLove

These last 24hrs have been so rich.
I’ve felt overcome with love again recognising Francesco’s touch by the good mood and good feeling I fell into since asking for a physical sign from him yesterday.

#IlSilenzio

#IlSilenzio

Sometimes I feel I’ve been left behind in this world whilst another more interesting world is waiting.
A world of deep love, peace, joy, freedom.