Grace Notes on Love & Loss

#Hachiko
You are also his soulmate.
I’ll never forget the day we watched the movie Hachiko.

#LoveThatGrows

Francesco’s Eternal nature lives on.
I’m still keeping a record of all the ways he’s showing up.

Happy anniversary my love. ❤️❤️❤️
14 years today since I walked onto that airplane and had the strong since to sit next to you.

Bit of a low day yesterday until Francesco sprang forth.

Took myself for a walk and had an insight about grief. My grief is occuring when I relive his death and loss but it’s not there when I relive his life.

I’m missing the physical….
Francesco was so affectionate with me.
Heart to heart hugs in the morning, he said it set the day right.

The words Be As One were a staple of my meditations during my relationship with Francesco.

I see the ships.
This time I see them without you.
Crossing the bridge.
Arriving into your City.

Exactly 12 months ago Francesco and I went into lockdown.
Finally together without any distractions,
my mind slowed down, his time freed up.

I can still see myself on the street ready to cross the road when I heard Francesco shout from a car “Hey baby”.

I didn’t know this would be the last time we’d meet each other alive.

Where did you go?
When I see these photos I see life, love, full of future.
Then I remember you’re gone.
Where did you go my love?

These last 24hrs have been so rich.
I’ve felt overcome with love again recognising Francesco’s touch by the good mood and good feeling I fell into since asking for a physical sign from him yesterday.

Sometimes I feel I’ve been left behind in this world whilst another more interesting world is waiting.
A world of deep love, peace, joy, freedom.