Coffee with Fran

Waking up today on the fifth anniversary of Francesco’s death.

I wondered if I should order my coffee from the bar near me or just brew my own as usual.

Quickly a memory popped in.

It was Fran! 🩷

He was bringing me my coffee pretending to be Carson the butler from Downton Abbey.

He used to do this so often.

Maybe every morning.

He would knock the bedroom door three times, bow his head and say...

“My Lady, coffee is served."

He put on the full butler act.

Coming into the room, drawing the curtains, placing the coffee down asking, “Will that be all, my lady?" before turning on his heels to walk away.

I never got bored of that.

He loved to joke and play.

I loved to play along.

I haven't had this memory in a long, long time.

So when it suddenly arrived this morning as I contemplated how to have my coffee, I knew Fran was communicating with me, making me smile today.

In the end I made my own coffee.

And got myself dressed up to go meet a friend.

To do something fun and joyful today.

Fran was always adding more joy and lightening me up.

When I was low he would say, “My babe is in a right mood."

He would never take my drops in mood personally.

He would never drop down to meet me either, which was so helpful because it meant I didn't stay there long.

How could I with his big smile guiding the way?

Hard to believe he is five years physically gone.

His love continues though.

He showers me with miraculous signs, friends, gifts and events.

I call on him for just about everything and he always delivers, he does the same for my clients too.

Many report calling on him for technical help, as that is what he was so good at in this world.

Always with successful results for them.

I once heard that when we die, whatever we were good at on earth we are even better at from the place we now stand.

I see how true that is.

He fixes everything.

As I reflect on these five years I am grateful that in many ways my life has improved, rather than declined.

Grief did not take me down.

There are things I can really appreciate now.

All new forms of Fran’s love.

I know he is happy for me and Celestino.

Fran was always proud of me.

Hopefully he is even more so of the woman I now am. ♥️